Depersonalized

I don't feel real.

My body isn't my own.

I can't feel....
I have no connection.

I am in panic mode,
My heart is pounding...
A never ending drum beat,
That I can hear,
Over...
And over..
And over..
Again.

I am depersonalized.

And cannot look at myself in the eyes...
Because the person I see in the mirror,
Is not me.

The person in front of me is slowly leaving.

Why do I have this feeling?

I am so alone...
And on the inside I am screaming.

I am not breathing.....
So how is my heart still beating?


I can't feel anything.